KyungAe

Written in my Notes app 3/4/2024

Not to long ago I spoke with a Lyft driver named KyungAe about life and stuff. The conversation started simply about my degree and then it got very philosophical. She spoke to me about being a pawn of how we all are taught to be consumers. She mentioned we are unequal that we all don’t share the same qualities that require success. She also spoke of enlightenment by going through life we mature and realizing we are never set in stone that we are more than ourselves. That true freedom is letting go of who we are. She also spoke of reading philosophy and works as parts of a whole which I wholeheartedly agree with.

What are my takeaways. Well I am a consumer I am aware but still a consumer being used by the system feeding it giving it my time which amounts to my soul. I wonder them how do I become defiant to this state. She mentioned that I should work hard and I would find my way. I am
Working hard right now working so hard for other peoples ends because of ideals that are not my own, because myself wants to be worthy to prove itself. My mind is stuck on this paradigm that hard work pays but I am confusing working hard for others with working hard on and for oneself. I don't know if she sensed something inside me but whatever made KyungAe speak to me I am grateful for our conversation.

I have a tendency to become so lost in this world and the doing of things that I lose my composure and become dragged under rippling tides of social pressures. I am grateful that I was reminded of what I must become of how ugly a thing it is to be complacent with being a consumer and not a creator and maker. I cannot blame the world for my actions I can only evaluate why I do the things I do and change myself to be other than who I am. We are not set in stone we are a spirit that can change and evolve. I must focus on detaching myself from stress, fear, anguish, despair, and this restlessness I suffer from.

I will follow the truth I know to be true and silence the noise that distracts my mind priming it to be a slave to this world. I will be free and control my souls sanctity by cherishing the present. I silence my fears of a future that is not here, of a past that has already expired.

My mind is scrambled by this overwhelming sense of pressure cause by itself. I must silence my mind and silence my fears and remain stable internally. I am a system that can be controlled as the world controls me. I can be free, I just have to commit to it and not distract myself with doing things for the sake of doing things.

Can you hear me? This is the soul that wants to be healed and freed from my mind and bodies trauma. I thank KyungAe for speaking with me today I hope she reaches her freedom as I wish to reach mine.